My Disembodied Experience and the Neural Net

Before I start this post, I have to say the model for this blog is likely to be random, sometimes containing responses to things occurring in the here and now and other times having seemingly no reference to things that may be found in the ongoing perceptions of those who may find themselves reading it.

This particular post centers around some random thoughts I've been dwelling on. Thoughts that have developed over time within my ever-present self-analysis. It has to do with my vision of the ultimate Utopian state of a future cyborg culture and how I developed this vision in relation to my life experience. As a transwoman, I often, since I have not completed transition feel as though what I understand to be myself is, in a way, disembodied. That is not to say that I am experiencing dissociative symptoms but rather that my self, as conceived by me, lacks a physical presence in the world that is congruent with it. As such I have often, in my personal relationships (whether in love or friendship) desired to be intensely close to others, to break down barriers commonly held between my self, and the self of others, in a way, to achieve a level of experienced unity of selves. Often, of course, the nature of reality prevents this, but I nonetheless strive for it, I tend to think striving for unattainable goals it what moves us forward. When I look at this desire I see that is it clearly related to my feelings of lacking a physical avatar as it were; I wish to communicate with people on a level that allows them to experience and understand the envisioned form of myself that is most real to me.

That said, when it comes to the possibilities of the neural net, this sort of unity of selves, the instantaneous communication of shared thought, is to me, the central and key beneficial factor of the technology. By way of such, we can share things about ourselves that physical reality and cultural restrictions prevent, coming to better understandings of one another and fulfilling a sort of technological mimicry of a degree of the sort of moksa (enlightenment) that's discussed in Advaita Vedanta (hindu spiritual philosophy that centers around the experience of unity with everything - the universal deity, Brahma - "universal oneness").

In any regards, tracing this interesting origin of my Utopian notions exposes the fact that such an experience, such a use of neural net technologies, should they ever be developed, is one that has its roots in a particular lived and cultural context. Perhaps the Advaita Vedanta Hindus and other-gendered persons of the world could unite to promote a culture that would foster such use.

Any comments are welcome from anyone and if anyone out there has actually thought about the possibilities that exist with exocortex/neural net technologies to similar degree to myself, I'd be more than willing to hear about them!

An Attempt at Voicing a Transcyberfeminist Perspective

This is, of course, the first post of the blog and as such will be fairly brief, merely describing what will be attempted in the process of producing this blog. The content of such will be situated within a unique discourse perspective that bridged between Queer Theory and Third Wave feminist theories as viewed by my own perspective, a perspective that comes latent with the life experience of being a transgender woman. In any regards, the best way to sum up what will be forthcoming in the posts of this blog is to refer to it as the expression of an amalgamation of transfeminism, queer theory, cyberfeminism, Goddess Feminism (now that's interesting, what's a second-wave phenomenon doing here? - just you see! ^.-) and various other theoretical perspectives of the humanities as I see fit; in any regards, I'm here to latch on to my bit of the net and contribute my own two sense to the ongoing, increasingly global (though we should not forget the great digital divide) discussion made available by the medium.

I'll leave you all, that is, what minute number of people will possibly stumble upon this, with a video from the current album that has of late caught my attention: